A Turning Point

A Turning Point

It's been eventful and some of it was difficult and in the end it was all worth it.  I'm going to keep this short and sweet.

I'm embarrassed by my behavior.  I've had a few major freak outs the last couple of weeks.  I've blamed people, I've talked badly about them, I've put my nose in the business of others.  I really needed to stop and just focus on myself.

No matter what I was trying, I simply couldn't get over it.  I just ignored it and tried to make the best of it yesterday.  At some point during the Spa Party it just all slipped away.  I let go.  I wasn't upset, stressed out or angry anymore.  It's such a relief!!!!  My heart is filled again with joy and love.  It makes me sad to think about how I've been acting and how nasty my attitude has been.  This is not who I am and this is not who I want to be.

I'm grateful to be forgiven and have another chance to build a good, healthy relationship.  I'm glad Kevin still wants to marry me, even after seeing the worst of me.  I don't deserve him, but I'm thrilled to have him.

In just 5 short days we are getting married and our families will officially be joined.  I can't wait!!!  And just in the knock of time, the tension and drama between his sister and I is gone.  I am looking forward to spending time with her this week and her being in our wedding and what all we are going to get to do...and to it together.